Note: If you missed the first five days of my meditation experience, scroll through the home page to review.
In Day 6 of the Meditation Experience, the Centering Thought is focused on emotions being our most intimate ally. It’s about interpreting how we are feeling, in order to make the best decisions possible. In other words, “Trust your gut”.
I’ve had to make A LOT of decisions lately that have left me feeling a million different things. In other words, I’ve been highly overwhelmed. In the past, I would have gone with the first emotion I felt (what I thought was my gut) and based all of my decisions on that one feeling. However, as my life has gone on, I’ve learned that making decisions, based on initial emotion, hasn’t really panned out the way I felt it should. It’s because of this that I’ve had to learn how to “read” my gut properly, in order to sift through my initial feelings versus what my longer-term feelings would be. In other words, sometimes, my gut and I have to have some serious chats before “we” come to any future major decisions.
In the last few weeks, I have had a ginormous decision to make, in regards to where “home” really is. In May of 2014, my now ex and I moved out to San Diego to start a new life in a happier place, as we felt that D.C. was too small with too many angry people. Over time, we realized that maybe San Diego wasn’t completely “it” for us, as we felt life was too slow and too laid back for us. This led us to entertaining the thought of moving to Los Angeles instead because we felt so happy and full of life when we’d visit there. Since we are now no longer together, this “we” decision became a “me” decision. For MONTHS I have been going back and forth over this. I’d go up to L.A. and FEEL extremely happy to be there. Then, I’d go back to D.C. and despite the horrible winter they had been having, would FEEL extremely happy to go home and see all of my friends and family. In L.A., I’d FEEL excited over the prospect of starting out with a brand new life. In D.C., I’d FEEL excited to head back into an old, familiar life that I love. In L.A., I’d FEEL overwhelmed at starting over a little bit, having to develop a new social circle. In D.C., I’d FEEL a little apprehensive over few new experiences being available to me to help me grow.
This list can continue on and on but the point is, I was trying to sift through all of the emotion to get to the answer I needed to have, instead of just making a knee-jerk reaction, based how I was feeling on any given day. Because of this more measured approach, my gut wasn’t even sending up smoke signals to help me make my decision. I listed out the pros and cons – dead even. I talked to friends and family, hoping they could give my gut a swift kick in one direction – that didn’t happen either. I tried meditation, prayer and journaling – nothing. Then, one day, my friend said, “At this point, you need to let the universe work its magic”. I took a step back, let the thought go and trusted that the universe would come back to me with an answer. Sure enough, evening out and calming my emotions let me see and think clearer. Within 24 hours of her saying that, I was finally able to come up with my answer: I’m moving back to D.C.
Emotions can be very powerful decision makers that can cause some serious harm to yourself and/or those around you if not worked through properly. Teaching ourselves to be calm and to take our time to understand/dissect our overwhelming emotions, can eventually lead to a repeatable process that helps us make future decisions from a confident, happy place each and every time. This is what some of the most successful leaders in the world have figured out and practice everyday.
This meditation is something I will refer to often.